A Bittersweet Farewell

I should be packing right now.  The movers are coming at 6pm and it’s 4:30.  I’m drinking a beer, listening to Waylon Jennings on vinyl and typing on this computer for probably the last time ever in this beautiful space.  My little baby is with my mom and has been with her everyday for almost a week, just so I can get things done.  I’m not exaggerating when I say that I’ve been working 70 hours a week.  That’s shoots plus post production plus premieres plus meetings plus album designs, mailings, customer service, etc.  I’m drowning this time every year, but this year it’s different because I have a baby.  And up until the last couple of weeks, I have also been a full time mom.  You do the math.  As Clinton says, it’s “arithmetic’.  There has been no time for me.  And I can do that… for awhile.  But after 9 months of trying to make all of this work, I am finally throwing up the white flag and letting go.

 

I will always be a photographer. I wouldn’t be Ramona’s mother if I weren’t.  It’s who I AM.  My identity is completely wrapped up in my work and will always be.  But starting December 1st I am simplifying.  I’m simplifying my packages, I’m simplifying my work space, I’m even simplifying my wardrobe.  And as hard as it is sitting here with tears streaming down my face saying goodbye to a chapter of my life, I’m ready for the next.  I’m ready for some land.  I’m ready for some peace.  I’m ready for 20 weddings instead of 30 and I’m ready to have a semblance of my personal life back.  I can’t wait to take long walks with Ramona, take her to the library, or to the pool just because. I’m ready for the spa—-ahhhhh the spa, which I haven’t visited since my little bean was born.  I’m ready to TRAVEL!!!!

 

Jesse and I bought this incredible space just 3 1/2 years ago knowing that it was an investment property and that it might make more financial sense for us to lease it one day.  And it’s come down to that.  We can own this amazing space and make a tiny profit from it now.  And I can bring everything home to confine my life into one working space.  I’m actually really looking forward to it.

 

Let me reiterate.  For any of you who are thinking that I am quitting or am going out of business, I am absolutely not.  I am still and will probably always be a full time wedding and portrait photographer.  I just won’t be working like a mad woman.  I’ve made some of the best work of my life this season simply because I realized that my work is ME.  As much as my family is ME, my work is ME and seeing two worlds collide this season, actually extracted some of my finest creative juices.  I was in an “alpha-state”, if you will.  I’ve posted a few images that I’m quite proud of below, just because.  And believe me, now that I’ll be working from home there will be much more blogging and much more clarity in my “voice” as an artist.  I hope you will all follow me down this new path and will be able to see the new spirit in my work.  I’m very excited.  But until I feel the freedom, I’ll let these tears flow and feel the loss of surrendering my home away from home.  Good bye 2405 W 32nd Ave.  You were a dream come true.  Literally.

 

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16 Comments

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Emilie Dreply
November 1, 2012 at 10:35 AM

Good for you! Love the photos

Chelseyreply
November 1, 2012 at 10:43 AM

What beautiful moments! Congratulations, and good luck on your journey.

Steve Stantonreply
November 1, 2012 at 10:45 AM

You have truly inspired most all of us, and paved the way for those who love seeing this world through the lens. Your decisions to really prioritize things has only reaffirmed you as a great role model.

I’d love some coffee time with you someday soon, and applaud you!

Kacey Reneltreply
November 1, 2012 at 10:51 AM

Cheers to your new journey Julie! XO

Jessereply
November 1, 2012 at 10:52 AM

Hon – I’ve watched you all these years work your ass off like few others ever could. Other photographers may envy the amount of business you get but very few of them could ever handle the workload. It’s been a heavy burden indeed at times. And this year, with our new little girl in the world, it has been especially tough. Once upon a time, 70 hours a week was fine. But not anymore. I’m excited about these changes to your business and about what else God may have in store for us. You’re a brilliant photographer and always will be. But it will be nice for us to not have you be gone 6 out of 7 nights a week in the summer!

I love you and am excited about this new chapter in our journey together as a family.

Love,

Jesse

betsy beauvaisreply
November 1, 2012 at 11:43 AM

congratulations Julie..your work as a photographer is undeniably amazing–beautiful, raw, thoughtful, artful, spontaneous and full of humor…I wish you all those same qualities in your other career….thanks for the beautiful mama blog…i’ve loved following your journey…be well…xo betsy

momreply
November 2, 2012 at 9:31 AM

Your words and your images make me cry

Chris Humphreysreply
November 2, 2012 at 3:10 PM

Congrats Julie on making such a great decision not just for your business, but for your life and your family.

Your many many friends are cheering you on and can’t wait to watch you continue to grow as an inspiring artist to many!

Rock on! 🙂

Amanda Sutherlinreply
November 3, 2012 at 7:26 PM

Burning the candle at both ends eventually equals no candle…. I think you’re very wise. And a temporary shift for the greater good is not a permanent loss… it just means your brave too.

Aimee Parkreply
November 5, 2012 at 8:16 PM

Congratulations, Julie. Your work is simply amazing and I look forward to every blog article you post.

Christy Harperreply
November 6, 2012 at 2:24 AM

Love your images!! Thanks for sharing 🙂

Dan Ereply
November 8, 2012 at 10:26 PM

Julie,

I have been following your photography for years, and you have always inspired me and challenged me as a photographer. As a father of five children, I can promise you that you are making the best choice of you life. It seems like Jesse is pretty awesome too. Congratulations, and may God bless your new path!

Ken Tophamreply
November 9, 2012 at 7:05 AM

Stunning images all the way through, what a stunning eye you have!
and the newborn chap at the end looks like a handful!

Rebeccareply
November 14, 2012 at 9:48 AM

Good for you, Julie. I look forward to continuing to follow your journey.

kristareply
December 13, 2012 at 10:17 PM

We’ve never met, but I’ve looked up to you for a long time now. I’ve always loved that you have maintained your identity through the years, through travel, lots of hard work, and motherhood. Change is good. The tears just mean that it’s an important transition. Good luck to you!

Christy Harperreply
December 21, 2012 at 11:46 PM

wonderful images thanks for sharing 🙂

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